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Maya

Maya — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Michael...

.......I dont think I can say something now..

I will come back later..

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hello Maya,

Yeah, I ummm, I understand that.

Take your time.......

Shiv

Shiv — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

i am dumb founded

a real life classic which will make the best of jeffery archer a kids scrawl (no disrespect to the great author but my sentiments )

wish i could hug you

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

”which will make the best of jeffery archer a kids scrawl”.

LOL!! Shiv, you can always be trusted to come up with a hard-hitting one-liner!!

Yes, I suppose it must seem like some kind of scenario for a novel.

Except that it isn’t.......

I had to think very long and very hard about my decision, and I’m just glad I didn’t get on the first plane available when I first found all this out...

Thanks.

Shahwar K

Shahwar K — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

life+fiction =

..............

LIFE!

past continuous!

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hi!!

Um, I don’t see much fiction in there lol!

There’s certainly a lot of life though, and I guess I just couldn’t see any benefit to be gained from yet another death.

Thanks very much...

Shiv

Shiv — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

i wonder why life foxes us all the while

i often feel that i have been wronged but do not feel ill about most ,not also about myself

one never knows when the journey will come to an abrupt end so why carry all the negativity like a trash can

though impossible to practice still forgiveness remains the ultimate virtue as it liberates us from the bondage of the past

best wishes & a happy new year

may your dream come true & you find the ultimate happiness

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

I couldn’t agree more Shiv.

I am not afraid of getting stuck in where it hurts, as you know, but, as you imply, why carry any more negative baggage around than we need to?

I’ve carried my fair share, and for long enough. The last thing I need now is more of it....

May I wish you an excellent year 2009 Shiv, one in which you continue to breath in the good half....and spit out the rest.

Sanwali

Sanwali — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

I know it must be very tough to overcome the child hood scars that you’ve got because what you’ve gone through is a lot to bear at the young age. This is not a consolation in any way but a way to show the respect to one brave man in our community. Brave, because you are going to meet your mother’s murderer. Not with an intention to kill him but with an intention to punish him for the rest of his life.

You have chosen the right way to punish the man. Rest will be taken care of by the god after he dies…

God Bless!

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Thank you Sanwali, for your very human comment.

I just want this guy to spend what time he has left thinking about what happened. About whaqt he did.

After all, I’ve had to.......

And, as you say, when his day finally comes he will realise just how many repercussions his act is going to have on his soul.

And that shall punish him more than any blind revenge ever could.

Thanks again Sanwali.

Sanwali

Sanwali — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Exactly, killing the culprit is a miniature punishment but making him feel guilty and remorseful throughout the life is the biggest revenge that one can have.

And yes! You don’t have to thank me twice for expressing my feelings. :P

Take care.

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

LOL!!

Oh yes, didn’t notice I thanked you twice! :P

Ok, that means I don’t have to thank you for the comment you just put up!!

(LOL Sorry Sanwali, I just couldn’t resist that little piece of ironic but harmless black english humour).

You take care too Sanwali. Your thoughts are very much appreciated.

Regards,

He-who-is-not-thanking-you-for-your-comment.

Maya

Maya — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Michael...after going through all these adversities you still emerged as a good individual... That is really appreciable…

I can’t even imagine how I would have reacted in such a situation…taking revenge is not gonna bring your mother back to life. …but letting him go..is even more painful…may God give you strength to face the situation appropriately….

I admire your writing ..your wisdom....your experiences …

Thanks for this wonderful touching piece of writing…. I am glad I joined IB!

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

”Good individual” ?

Don’t speak too soon my friend Maya. I still have time to do something really dumb lol!

You know what? You are quite right. Thanks for bringing that up.

Yes, letting him go is painful, because I know what I’m capable of doing here, but, at the end of the day, what’s that pain compared to the pain of knowing I just did something I KNOW my mother would not be proud of me for?

Sumit Jain

Sumit Jain — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Wow,that is one story to tell.34 long years.And now you are all out to meet the killer.I tell you you should get this incident copyrighted,it will make a great movie(no fun intended,i am serious)..The last part where you will not kill the murderer of your mother but instead make him feel guilty about the whole thing is great.Maybe he might not have any remorse and maybe he might tell that he did it as part of his duty or even worse he might deny the whole thing.You should hope for the best and prepare for the worst.And please do let me know what happened after you met him..Have a nice journey..

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hi Sumit!

You know what? He can say what he likes, but I will make him look at that photo, by force if necessary. That’s all I want here.

But, to be honest, when I first get there, he is going to be very afraid when he finds out who I am, and before he knows my intentions. That will keep him quiet, I’m sure. He’s going to think his hour has come, don’t worry about that.

He can’t deny it though. Trust me when I say I know why.

Copyright? Oh, I would if I was the only person who had ever found his parent(s) killers, but, unfortunately, I’m not.

Besides, it it was just a FILM, and not real life, maybe I’d change the ending to ”he gets his brains blown out”.

Seeya!!

Sumit Jain

Sumit Jain — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Well,in case you plan to make a film out of it then do let know,I can get it made cheap and for a profit..and I personally think that the man would not admit anything and if he did kill your mother then he might have those killer instincts still,so be careful..he might have back-ups too..watch your back too.Just be careful,precaution is better than cure...what say???

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Nope, he will admit, believe me. If he doesn’t admit before, because he’s scared for his life, he will afterwards. But that’s not relevant here.

He has no back-up, he’s just some fairly poor guy living a boring and lonely existence in a nondescript area in a nondescript town. I know this.

Finally lol, I see where you’re going here with the film! Ok ok, I’ll be in touch lol!!

Sumit Jain

Sumit Jain — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Comeo on..I was only trying to convince you for a true film,with true characters.You can be a movie star man.And I dont think that he will fear his life.86 years old man anyhow knows death is near..take care mike...

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

I’m sure you’ll understand Sumit, if I say that I’d rather not talk more about what he may fear, or not.

True characters? I’ve been one long enough. My role there? I would offer it to a VERY MEAN Stephen Sutherland.........

Yo!

Wa'd

Wa'd — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

:) ...

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

X :)

Oscar

Oscar — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Geez Michael..

I don’t know what to say. I’d like to say I’m sorry, but that’s not exactly what I want to say either.

I’m sorry for your loss (although it was long ago, I’m sure it will never pass), but I am happy for your ”truths.”

I amhappy you will have some time of ”finalty” (I don’t think that’s a word, but I think yu know what I mean.)

Who knows how the man will react, but I am sure after seeing herpicture, a beautiful woman who had 3 beautiful children which HE destroyed, he will think long and hard and continue to do so for the rest of his life (however long it may or may not be at his 86 years of age.)

You will prove to him there are HUMANS in this world and even if he tries to state it was his duty (as another comment mentioned), he will be forced to see as her child, it could be viewed equally as YOUR duty to avenge her death, which you will not be doing.

Death to him would be too easy, living with his ”truth” will be punishment that I think no one could fully understand.

He disrupted your life, your family, HER FAMILY. He did not take only one life.....One can never run from our past, it ALWAYS catches up..

Stregnth and Courage my friend and may this act bring peace to you and your family.

Romshi Ashesh

Romshi Ashesh — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Dear Michael,

I read your story and felt almost same as I felt when I heard about Priyanka Gandhi’s visit to her Father’s Killer in prison.We are no one to take revenge.Michael...the biggest revenge is to forgive. and I think Thats what you want to convey...Bravo!!I must salute you.

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

It’s so strange Romshi.

I always believed in ”an eye for an eye” before. I am supposed to be an experienced and so-called ”real” man.

But now, faced with the real thing, I just don’t know how I could do otherwise.

Sure I could kill him.

But I just don’t want to.

I meant what I said about not wanting to disappoint my mother in an earlier comment.

But that’s not all.

No, this has nothing to do with killing him or not. That would be easy. That doesn’t scare me.

It’s just that you cannot know what it means to hold the life of another man in the balance of your hands.......until you actually do.

I know Pryanka’s story. It was not an inspiration here, but it is, I wholly agree, an apt corollary...

Thanks for writing.................

Michael C

Michael C — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Oh Romshi, I forgot something.

I shall spare his life, but I must admit that I cannot aspire to wanting to forgive him.

Maybe I’ll do that when I see his eyes. I do not know.

(Oh well, I shall comfort myself by believing that I may be halfway to being a decent human being...)

Thanks..

Megha

Megha — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

wow!! Truly marvellous! I actually salute your guts of bringing that story in public! I mean, I can actually see you filled with anxiety, anguish and excitment, while writing that story and having your favorite photograph right in front of you. Truly sad is the feeling that you can never meet your mother now! How helpless we human beings bencom sometimes! But I guess, this is life!:-)

All the best for your future life!

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

You know Megha, it may sound strange, but it doesn’t really take guts, not in my case anyway.

I just HAD to write this down. It’s been in my head for so long, and is written in different forms elsewhere, but it wadn’t really a conscious decision to wrute it.

I think I just needed to share it....

Thanks for your kind words.

Incognito

Incognito — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

What a sad story, MC. especially your sisters. Hopefully time will heal that wound.

But by killing him you would be ruining *your* life and what point would there be to that? He’d have murdered your mother and ruined your life.

But it does sound like the foundation for a fascinating film. Truth is always stranger than fiction.

Will you cast me as your mum?

Megha

Megha — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

why do you want to be cast as his mom? I mean, that would only be a short role to play! You can play one of the sisters (only a suggestion :-)))

Marco Villa

Marco Villa — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

”why do you want to be cast as his mom? I mean, that would only be a short role to play!”

I know you meant anything but offense, but I don’t think this comment is very appropriate.

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hi Incognito!

I have done many things in my life, and lived in many places too, and my friends say that my sisters, never really having travelled or even changed the area they live in, are finding it harder to assimilate all this.

They are probably right. People sort of ”get used to” change.

In fact, my family there, (I discovered that I have nephews, neices, their children etc) write me often. They are less ”involved” I suppose.

Let’s just wait and see.....

@Marco. As you say, her comment would be inappropriate, but I know IC and why she wrote it. There’s no problem there....

RobbieNZ

RobbieNZ — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Its emotional... very emotional...

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

It was very emotional when I found all that out, I can tell you!

But I got so tired out thinking about what to do about it that I sort of ”decided to decide”.

I did, I’m sticking to it, and I shall stick to it...

Thanks Robbie!

Marco Villa

Marco Villa — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

I am very sorry for you lose Michael.

I can’t image a more sorrowful burden for a young man to carry than to lose his parents and be disunited with his siblings.

I read this story early this morning, and decided to write something now because I stayed with me.

You are brave in confronting your mother’s murderer.

I hope you can find solace after the meeting. I hope time will only bring you closer with your sisters.

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Thanks Marco, that’s very kind of you.

You are quite right about solace.

I am convinced that after my visit to England I will finally be able to put it all to rest. It’s been a long time.......

...but it’s been worth the wait.

Karim Khan

Karim Khan — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

What a stotry Mike!

Congrats on finding all the truths you did and you must MUST write your biography after you walk out on that killer. If you don’t, I may be coming after you; to kill you (LOL)!

Thanks brother for sharing this true story of courage and reunion with the sisters and the photo. Do let us know what you experience.

Cordially

Karim

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hi Karim!

Write my biography?

I have been told that quite a few times. But to be honest after a fairly hectic life I’d just like to hang out a while lol!

Or say it all into a dictaphone and get someone else to write it all down. To geve you a clue on how complicated it’s all been, I wasn’t even conceived, or born, in my own country!!lol

Sometimes I wish I’d just been an office clerk with a watch as a reward for thirty five years loyal service...

Megha

Megha — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hi Marco

This comment was made in a light mood. She presented her wish of playing a role in the movie! and i just suggested that if she wills to portray her acting skills, then she sould go for a longer role to play. That’s it :-)) Its how you see things!

Marco Villa

Marco Villa — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Of course, I understand.

Megha

Megha — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Thanks!! Your earlier comment made me feel so guilty!

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

lol! If any of you guys wanna play mah mother, or write mah life story, well then you betta jus’ go git yo’ purty lil’ ass to here now!

http://mikool.instablogs.com/entry/the-fruit-of-war/

It’s the beginning. It’s before the beginning........

Incognito

Incognito — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

�I’ll write it for you... :-)

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

@ Megha and Marco.

LOL Don’t worry, either of you. There’s nothing wrong there, except feeling guilty!!

Yo!!

ARVIND K.PANDEY

ARVIND K.PANDEY — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

It’s a really tragic story that makes us learn the art of dealing with separation and a huge personal loss in a very dignified manner.

Michael C

Michael C — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Yep Arvind, it’s the learning curve, again.

I personally think the learning curve is so long that it just turns into a circle.......

Life.

Seeya!

ARVIND K.PANDEY

ARVIND K.PANDEY — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

@Michael

Earthly life is a big circle.

Sumit Jain

Sumit Jain — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Hey Michael,when are you leaving to meet that old man..The best punishment you can give him is tie him with a rope and put lots of viagara tablets in his mouth and watch the fun...I dont know under what circumstance he killed your mother but will certainly regret doing so..lol...

Mary Pa

Mary Pa — Tue, 05 May 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Its just simple. I dont say a murder is not bad. But I say there are more bad things and horrible things than that. Say for instance you said anti Germans killed your mother. But do you know? some races are completely slaverised? Their children are separated from their parents and their mothers get raped if they come for their children? Nobody knows who those childrens parents are and the children are used as slaves to Midea communities in the whole of the earth? Many horrible things happen. Their outcome is bad. Like their relatives are scattered etc and their money is taken away from them etc.

Many people are victims of that.

No paper reports it . None says that. Many people face many things. There is a saying in our native tongue. ie The chaste goddess has her own trouble and in the same way a crab has got its own trouble. So everyone on the face of the earth has troubles.

In my openion trusting in Him who is above is the most wise thing. He says if you are called as a slave you are a master in Christ. If you are a freemen and you are called by Him then you are a slave to Christ. So praising Him is important than to judge any circumstances.

Blah Machine

Blah Machine — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Michael. This is a beautiful picture. Yes, she’s gorgeous. This was a brave piece. And amazing that you could share it. So plainly. I wonder how it went, your visit; I’m sure you’ve done it. I am sure it taught you even more than you had anticipated. On forgiveness - I imagine it’s much tougher than it sounds. But I’m grateful it exists, it allows us to get on with our lives without burying ourselves in the mistakes of the past.

Life, huh? Makes you wonder sometimes if you’re living it at all. It must have been one hell of a long life, not knowing. I do hope your sisters are able to get on with it too. I would not let a piece of me, a sibling, go; I’d fight for it all, I’m greedy. Not that I’m judging anybody; I’m sure they’ve taken their share of knocks in their own strong way, as best as they could.

Trust you continue to make and spread music. Emerging after many long months, this is one heck of a place to start. Glad to see you’re around!

Akhila Vidyasandra

Akhila Vidyasandra — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 00:00:00 +0000

Dear myki,

Its indeed heartbreaking. I feel very sorry but you have heard it many times in many vioce mine again.

but dear think about it again, you are not the only one who have/are facing it. your idea of make him realize what he did is fine but then dont give yourself to immediate instinct then (remember you said you dont know what you will do when you meet him/see him in eyes...) think about mary’s openion too.

at last you are the one to decide!?!?!?

your sister, (new!?)

Akhila.